minwei rocks & ivy rots

2012-02-19T17:22:00.002+08:00

囚鸟

我是被你囚禁的鸟
已经忘了天有多高
如果离开你给我的小小城堡
不知还有谁能依靠

我是被你囚禁的鸟
得到的爱越来越少
看着你的笑在别人眼中燃烧
我却要不到一个拥抱

我像是一个你可有可无的影子
冷冷的看着你说谎的样子
这撩乱的城市
容不下我的痴
是什么让你这样迷恋这样的放肆

我像是一个你可有可无的影子
和寂寞交换着悲伤的心事
对爱无计可施
这无味的日子

眼泪是唯一的奢侈

我的眼泪是唯一的奢侈
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眼泪是唯一的奢侈

2012-02-12T23:49:00.003+08:00

"If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or things."
- Albert Einstein
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I think I don't understand myself.
The care and concern, who doesn't?

I'm a lil' stress. Just a little.
All the upcoming test not revise, work lagging behind, issues around peeps, plus a frail heart.

I would like to hear what concerns you. But will you even ask what I concern?
Sometimes I hope things can be drawn from my point of view instead from yours. I get tired from all the real world issues as well, I need some fresh air, away from those circles that was built and back to mine.

I should coop myself up.
Guess it's the usual serenity I need.
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Oh. Taiwanese tourists cheered me up. (: so friendly! I love friendly people.
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ohwell. I'm happy sad.

2012-01-27T22:39:00.004+08:00

Higher, and higher.
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안녕하세요~

I'm taking Korean level 1 this semester in place for missing my registration for Taiwan and Hong Kong Literature which is my cup of tea. As much as I would like to take Jap, the timing just doesn't fit well with my timetable. I'm getting real busy with things nowadays because presentations are round the corner. It's week 3, so still the old me, counting down relentlessly to recess week. Oh, I took accounting as well, which by the way, still interest me despite feeling astonished about the people in my tutorial class who are like experts in every subject.

This new year had been really quiet. I haven't been going house visiting, just dropped by jiu ma's house in Malaysia for 2 days and I'm back to school again. On a side note, steamboat was great! I ate LOTS of scallops! :D

I feel trapped.
I really have the intention to go somewhere coming May.. preferably Taiwan or Hong Kong. If you happen to be free, ring me up! (:
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I can't go without your news.

2011-12-19T16:40:00.000+08:00

Life is just like that.

When people are leaving you, it feels as though they had dug a hole in you and left you hanging in the air. I don't always do the lamenting these years, not because I'm not grief. But more of these are hard to express. I can blaber a whole page on what happened, how I feel and stuff. But sometimes it's more than what you're telling others. I can share, but I hope you know there's always more to a story that are beyond words, that are abstract to be mention. They may be light yet carries something meaningful behind.

For the bizzare last week, I thank my dear friend who eat my favourite Mos burger with me and sharing my favourite Java Chips. Things always seem right when you're around.

Thank you for sharing my lost. I guess like what you said, he'll feel better in a place with no sufferings..
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Dear grandpa, ily.

2011-11-12T23:47:00.002+08:00

A sometimes story.
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如果你的童年是快乐的，想推荐大家读一篇散文。

蔡深江《漫步经心》。

“每个人心中都有一片沙漠，可以用来迷路。”
很深刻的一个句子。

我用它写了2000字的报告... 虽然伤脑筋，但能够阅读还是快乐的。（：
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Exams grr.

2011-09-19T00:01:00.003+08:00

静。
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无需大费周章。
幸福与否亦无需大声喧哗。

因为太牵强。

无需信心满满。
当心溢出来，一场欢喜一场空。

因为太勉强。

无需太自大。
放大自己缩小他人。

因为惹人厌。
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快要过期直道最后一天才会发现。

2011-09-10T23:54:00.002+08:00

I remembered that one of my friends said that, "You get a little emotional when you're sick."
True.
But I guess I'm taking in too much pills and was blur instead of the former.

So yea. Life's somewhat becoming a routine. I went to school from Monday to Friday by train and then shuttle buses blah blah. And, time flows just as soon as I thought.
Before you knew it, lessons ended.

I'll drop by lca to work on a Saturday some days and I feel loved at times. It feels like people still greet you warmly and the idea of being in the service line somehow reminded me of my choice for a course in trm.
Still, it just seems to be mere puffs.

I'm still not convince by the course I'm doing now. It's nearly to week 6 and I've like.. 16 more weeks to consider? Troubled. But yea, we'll see how.
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"wake me up when September ends."

2011-07-30T22:56:00.002+08:00

If life was simpler.
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If life was simpler, I'll live by 3 rules.. Eat, Sleep & blink.
Okay, probably I'll add "drink" because I'll be eyeing on Milo. It's my favourite drink of all times.
We know, Life's not getting any simpler.

Our lives are changing, from the years that drifted by.. From a time of I-am-not-sure-when.
Probably when I started school, when you appeared, when they became my strength and support, when I begin to judge someone, or when you suddenly make a harsh decision to leave me standing on that same old patch thinking I'll big girl.

I'm not a closed book.
I can share with you for almost anything in the world, critics, jokes, opinions..
Sometimes I'm not trying to hide things, I'm just not used to how you look at me, or thought I was somebody.
We have facades of all dimensions. It doesn't means I'm not who or I'm who.
But it doesn't tell a tale of me of being unreal.

I treasure things on my hands, I'd tried to & I'll always try.
Don't give up on me, I may not be the best.. but I'd tried.
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I've emptied one last bit of the paper from my drawer down to rubbish chute.
Something once told me how bad the situation was.
You've grown up now, live well.
Those were painful memories, but you prove yourself you're coping well with things. Things are piecing together, live well live well..

Some are still with me,
but the world don't stop revolving.
&I'm moving.
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If you wanna go.

2011-07-14T23:47:00.003+08:00

I'm soooooo enthu. I went to book HP's tickets online today and went to collect by afternoon. HEHE I'm catching it Sunday! :D

On the other hand, I'm so NOT looking forward to school. It reminds me of CAMPS and SOCIALISING which I really feel more at ease staying at my comfort zone~ It's a bad stage. I couldn't convince myself to study that. Trust me, I miss English novels.
Can I not go camp? :/

I painted one of my nail grey and I like the colour. (: Makes me recalled Deb in "Drop Dead Diva". Her lucky finger~ heh. The only difference is, hers is turquoise. I should catch Season 3 of DDV soon.

woooops.
My mom sleeping. I'll blogg soon I promise!
Till then.

Oh. My song of the week is 伤不起 by 郁可唯.
(:
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dull.

2011-06-09T00:09:00.001+08:00

It's your call.
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It has been sometime.

We've graduated. Time flies, and flew. I didn't know how we survived the 3 years of ordeals, but yes, we came across.. Definitely not the very best years, but very nice peeps that I'd met. We may not be the closest pals, but you people do resides in my heart.. [:

I would never forget what my grandma used to say every single year w/o fail, “努力读书、身体健康、快高长大！”.. yes grandma, I hope you know I'm trying hard to study despite being slow. So far I've been quite healthy (not the pink of health, though.) although I've some thalassemia traits which is mild and it's not really some big issue. And, I think I'm okay with my height, maybe getting a lil' old. So yea. Life is not really the same w/o you, miss you tons.

I'll be embarking on the next level of studies soon.. After much heard opinions from all sides, I reckoned that doing something that left lesser regrets in life.. should be the best. Nevertheless, a coin has two sides. I'm embracing that kind of life in two months' time and I guess like the saying goes, "No pain, no gain." The fact is, I don't quite admire the phrase.

I like the weather sometime these days. It's raining now, we'll have a good night sleep. (:
I only feel like typing things down when the weather is cooling recently.

I still haven't get out of the country.
hmmm I sort of envy people who are able to swim skillfully. Because thoughts of going countries with beaches and water sports engulfed my mind these days.

I read magazines and randomly saw these test that questioned about what you're most mindful of.
There asked, "Which do you prefer? -- Sea, mountain, flower or train." I think I prefer the sea actually. It is a representation of inner quality and characters. I'm not saying tt I'm good, but I value more on the interior thoughts rather than the exterior facade.

Okay, I know it ends abruptly.. But I'm going to happily munch my Oreos cookies dipped in Marigold/Magnolia milk again. (: I don't drink HL milk alr, it's too sweet.

I think I'm a very random someone.
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You raise me up
So I can stand on mountains.

2011-05-18T11:04:00.003+08:00

It's a big big world.
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There are a million things that you may fall for.
One thing to make sure, not into abyss.
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heart affairs 101.

2011-04-23T22:48:00.004+08:00

rifle.
through.
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HOLA.
I'm so lazzzzzy to type things down these months.
I'm sick last week and it costs me 55 bucks. :/ *correction*: my mom paid hahaaaa. But I transfered $300 to her upon request.. so, I'm still on deficit. Oh wells... which is why I'm working so frequently in the next 2 weeks..

I think I've doneeeee okay during internship and my manager treats me NOT BAD. (: She lets me work 4 days a row full shift next week. wows. Perhaps I'll get pretttty bored the coming week.
Anyhoo, I was in control room today for opening and I got SCARED. So I blasted cnblue's music to deviate my attention from my surrounding. :S I still prefer to work outside~

I still haven'tt really make up my mind to run.
I should just stab myself. :/

I wanted to MAKE NICEEEEE CARDS but my lazy bones are not working.
I should just stab myself. :/
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oneplusoneplusone.

2011-03-29T22:10:00.004+08:00

"First Step".
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Woooots. CNBLUE launches their "First Step" album with 11 tracks and 1 bonus. :D
I'm think I'm gonna get hooked to their songs for some time. Besides Jung Yong Hwa, my other love is Lee Jong Hyun. He got a rather soothing vocal. He did solo in "사랑은 비를 타고" and "고마워요" and was awesome. :D I think if they hold a concert here, I'll go and watch. :D

[01] 직감 (Intuition)
[02] Love Girl
[03] 상상 (Imagine)
[04] I Don't Know Why
[05] 사랑은 비를 타고
[06] Lie
[07] One Time
[08] Just Please
[09] Wanna Be Like U
[10] Ready N Go
[11] 고마워요
[12] One Of A Kind (Bonus Track)
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Step by step, one two three
dipdi daridu~

2011-03-29T14:05:00.010+08:00

Rango~~~~

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The weekends we went back for tomb sweep. As usual, the incense smell was unbearable, my eyes had this stinging feeling after roaming around the area and standing there motionlessly watching over the "chopped" place.

Oh wells, it's a loooooong day thereafter.
One and a half hour after reaching home, we went for movieeeeee at Jusco and catch "Rango". :D

It's pretty hilarious in the front part of the movie, there's practically a laughing point every minute.

We went for Laksa after movie and I swear it had been eons since I've eaten awesome Laksa! :D

I think I've sore eyes again, probably I can cip tmr. (:

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Oh, I've been having weird dreams these days. It's like the same type of movies -- thriller/conspiracy? I end up waking up at 12 noon just to see how the story progress. hahaaa

The story goes like our clan uses robotics to operate our daily routine of work, and once it exhausts its life, we're to head down to a dark tunnel to grab a new piece up. The dark tunnel looks something like the ROM ride lol. There was this "someone" who is a internal spy plotting some conspiracy against us and our clan has decided to unfold the veils of the whole cabal.

But I decided to wake up after that. Probably the dreams tomorrow will connect this dream? hahaaaa.

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How are peaceful days like in the past?

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areyougonnadisappearoneday?

2011-03-13T21:31:00.002+08:00

when you're left;
lingering through the countless nights.
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It's gonna be another insane week, I was thinking.
I can't believe I'm working 9 to 9 tml. O M G. Which means my lunch and dinner will be at take 5? alright, maybe lunch at bagus. Or perhaps my 2 hours lunch cum dinner will be put together?

Hmm. okay, moneyyyyyyyy~
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Something is wrong with my cousin these days.
He got this dejected aura enshrouding him as and when he goes. I know it sounds exaggerated, but I guess this was how he appeared to be.
I think I sort of know..

But these things are hard to explain and fathom.
Just let time do the job I supposed.
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I just realised Twitter has lots of random stuff.

"You never know how strong you are, until being strong is the only choice you have."
This is one of them. Some are realistic actually.
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"Love is like fire. You know it hurts, but you play with it anyways."

2011-03-08T22:14:00.003+08:00

Anchor me back down.
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Holaaaa~

I've been going back to work since Thursday. Thursday was a MAD day and I had no one to confide to except to rant all my grief to dearieee. :/

hmmm by the end of tomorrow, I'd technically earn 300 bucks. :D
I think I'll start to look for other jobs sooooooon~

I've been watching a whole series of kindaichi case file and beginning to start on 2nd series. That is the aftermath of nothing-much-to-do you see. But the drama was really nice! (:

Hmmm, currently reading "Veronika Decides to Die" by Paulo Coelho. I can't really understand his "The Alchemist" though... Maybe I shall try again hahaaaaa.
And, that's about it for now!
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It's just like how I swipe through my elbow sometimes, I feel and see this scar there.
That will always remain a scar.
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Just like how you are.

2011-02-23T22:48:00.003+08:00

well, kept.
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Morning was great, particularly this morning.

Mom is at home, I've got things to eat.
I was permitted to stare blankly at the ceiling until clock hits 10.
Watched some mainland shows on the com with my mom. Haaaa~ turns out to be quite nice actually.
Watched a few episodes for Kang Xi Lai Le.
Walked around.. opened the fridge. TADAA~~ B&J's Choco Fudge Brownie ice cream. :DDD

Suddenly I'm a free man.
woman? I'd always thought labelling myself as "woman" seems weird. Hahaaaaaaa
Let's say "free man" instead. (:

It feels like a millionnnnnnn years since I've been so free and out of my usual routine. Well, I guess the lists above will be my re-adopted chores and will be categorized under "usual routine." Of course, with work and some jogging (yes, I know I've been saying it for like... 2 years). So hopefully. :DDD
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I shall go colour my hair. (: Not soon, but just a hunch that I'll go colour my hair.
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somewhere.

2011-02-21T17:34:00.002+08:00

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I'm dying.

:/
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GAAA.

2011-02-21T11:38:00.003+08:00

It took courage to sit down in front of the com and click "Documents", then search for "final report_v2" (my doc. name) and double clicked it.

I see WORDSSS, but I wonder if those are the right words.
I don't know what to scribble.. No information, no nothing.. :/
what to do??

NO time omgosh.
and I'm going out at 7pm to eat dinner with my cousin and his gf!
Awwww, i don't wanna go out. :/
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gaaaa.

2011-02-01T23:25:00.003+08:00

Happy cny! (: I love cny. There's so much stuff to eat. But no steamboat this year... :/
because I've to WORK. grrrr.

On a lighter note, internship finishing in less than 10 working days! (:
SO FAST right! :DDD
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One of my favourite songs on the list now~

比較愛 -- 梁静茹

別說了再說我就要哭了
總之我是一個人
默默走回家又靜靜關了燈
是否該提醒你祝我生日更快樂

別點歌別讓傷心的情歌
惹得你睡不安穩
情人節的花你送給了別人
到隔天清晨留言你愛我多誠懇

只要能笑一笑抱著你感到安慰
我真的比較愛你一點
每當你看著我一個謊說得甜美
兩個人都忍不住傷悲

別點歌別讓傷心的情歌
惹得你睡不安穩
你生日那夜你留給了別人
到隔天清晨留言你愛我多認真

只要能笑一笑抱著你感到安慰
我真的比較愛你一點
每當你看著我一個謊說得抱歉
我知道你比我更可憐

就算我笑一笑得不到你的安慰
我情願比較愛你一點
我不要背著你說那些壞的語言
戀人啊都不准流淚

別說了再說我就要哭了
總之我是一個人
默默走回家又靜靜關了燈
電話那頭你說你是愛我的
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我情願比較愛你一點

2011-01-27T23:56:00.002+08:00

the grey area.
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I had an eye swelling syndrome and took 2 days mc. (: In total, I got 4 off days now because apparently.. next 2 days are my off days. (:
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Last Friday was a heartfelt day..
Especially when news were broke to me.
The next day, I went sauntering through that path that wasn't any much in favour to me; absent from my life for some years.
I'm speechless most of the part... not because of where I've walked, but the helplessness of what to say.

But I really am, I feel your despair.
It takes time to stand to gather your strength from where you are.
We're always here to watch over you.
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to the frail hearts and strong fighters.

2011-01-08T22:12:00.003+08:00

whirl.
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许多事情是难以启齿的
一则简讯，一段过去，一个人物、背景...
当下我们无法抉择，甚至不晓得如何取舍

不是忘了
怎么可能忘了...

就是这样一段过去搭上那样的时期
证明了那一段过去不虚假，不靠想象凭空变出...
就算人、事、物随着岁月流逝而改变，他/它们始终不曾从你心里消失

如同你的代表作。
因此，很重要...
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回忆是捉不到的月光握紧就变黑暗.

2011-01-01T23:21:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year~
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2010 wasn't the best year but not a bad one either. We can't deny what was gained and lost; but we learnt along the way.

Can you believe it? 3 years is gonna drift by... Our glorious or not poly years.
It's just as close to me as how I closed my eyes now, vivid images of these times popped by and said "Hi". They always said, people may change, but memory stays intact. That is the reason why people hold on to memories. Perhaps? Perhaps.

Just watched wgm's cut. Adam couple super cute! hahaha I feel perked up suddenly. :D I like watching this variety show, never fails to cheer me up. :D

Anywayyys.
Thank you all for the good and bad things in life. (: W/o bad things ahead to trip and fall, I guess I'll never realise the good things in life.
Especially to my dear mom, my irritating sister, my naggy but generous cousins, my lovely friends out there who're striving for lives!
ILY! *wink* ^^
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"Here I was again tonight forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old tired, lonely place"
~Enchanted

2010-12-26T11:17:00.003+08:00

"el que espera, desespera."
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Merry Christmas peeeeps! :D

This Christmas was spent in wooooooork. Not a bad idea, my wonderful colleagues out there distribute rations! :D So now I've got 6 ferreross from Kevin, 1 ferrero from Faez, 1 Beryl's choco bar from Aunty Jas, 1 packet of sweets cum marshmallow cum chocs from Ivyna, honey gave a card holder (which is awesome, bcoz mine wasn't in good shape since n mths).
And ytd Kevin brought Texas chips, JasLaw brought wafers, and Ivyna brought chocs~ :D

I realised that being Greeter is a lil' tiring in present. You see, we need to SMILE, SHOUT and ATTRACT guests in. It's getting sort of "pressurising" bcoz the mgt emphasize on "counts" now. @.@
Ytd Turnstile 3 called my lead on radio to no avail and called me. I was a lil' shock.
Oh I called revenge greeter before! haha.
I dunno why people like to steeeeeal strollers, make our life diff. :/
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I don't get the feel that 2010 is coming to an end. Although the atmosphere is there, the sometimes billowing cold wind, the festive season, the over numbered of chocolate cans and cookies, the not-my-holidays month...

It's ambling a tad faster than usual.

Trust me, I miss a lot of you-all.
Even if I mumble nothing, shown no signs of care & concern for you; I'd always miss you.

Ensued by the years down the road.
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“我想要的只是表达，而非被知道。”

2010-12-16T00:11:00.001+08:00

How many/much can you give?
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Has been awhile uhs?

I'm experiencing the so-tired-till-i-feel-like-dying since the day before. I mean, today is better. But still, the long MRT ride was torturous. It is totally lethargic and infectious; just seems to spread. And, I'm panic for those who sat beside me in MRT...
Probably I'm getting sick soon, or maybe I'm really old (?)
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On another note, I'm seriously getting sick and tired....
I'm afraid people ard me share the same ideology, we signed daily and going home was the biggest joy.

Anyway oh BUGGY WAS SUPER COOL! (:
One of the techs drive us back by buggy from "bagus", super cooool! It moves pretty fast. :DDD
And, "bagus" food nicerrrrr leh! (: haha. But cons is.. it's sooooo far away from 1st touchpoint. :/
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I'm coming back to senses.
That's when head rules, and everything falls apart.
They came to make sense, somehow.
Probably, things are not as appealing as what the package labelled.

That is, a pool of lies await; and someone fell.

klutz.
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Countless times;
ileadwithahollowheart.

2010-11-16T11:45:00.003+08:00

If life is as simple as 1,2,3.
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Then, I'll smile like this when I see cookies. (:

It's gonna be a year since that fateful day.
Next week I'm putting off for fri and sat to go back Malaysia.
I miss my grandma.
It's always during the cold season like now, I would remember how she fall ill & things fall apart.

My grandpa was out ytd to live a few days here. (:
But his legs are getting weak... :/
He love Nat Geo Wild channel. (:
He said I look fatter :O & my teeth looks nicer. xD hahaha, I know it doesn't linked. Probably I used the Darlie whitening toothpaste so it looked whiter (?) :DD But I thought my teeth looks yellowish grrr.
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We all know everything changes.
But some things remain a matter of fact; hopefully it doesn't alter.
Do not promise people things when you aren't capable of fulfilling them.

Because you just gave an empty promise.
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An indelible mark.

2010-11-09T11:16:00.003+08:00

drifting o f f.
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Mood changes like rocket science.
One moment you're head over heels, the other you're back to abyss.

It's hard to fathom.
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If life's good, congrats.
If it's not, we attempted on skills of masquerading.

"Mendacity masquerading as medicine."

It's not a sin, while everybody had their life on hand.
You lead yours, I had mine.
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It always feels like December is getting close.
Why?

Maybe it is.
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the billowing cold air.

2010-11-02T23:00:00.002+08:00

pickchaaa somewhere.
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Hola~
Beeeeen working recentlyyyyy~~ like always, I know.
Nothing bad about work.
Just that I got tired veryyyy easily, perhaps it's 3 yrs not exercising.
Early lunches seems to alter the time; like it never gonna tick.

Went to sent yvonne off for her internship at... MALDIVES. :D soooo long never see her.
It's a superrrr nice place! Many lucks to her. (:
If only our school send us to nice pplaces! hahaha ok, should be grateful with present things.

The weather is getting sooooo cold recently. Actually, nov shouldn't be like this. But well.. times had change.

I ate sundae ice-cream with nad today lols. Finally found someone who likes sundae like me! (:
cyaaaa, I haven't watch wgm. ):
I wanna eat brownieeeee!!!!!grr.
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open one eye,
close one eye.

2010-10-23T23:04:00.002+08:00

Those free days..
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Things were still fine.

I'm a "rice" person. So I eat rice almost for every meal. And I thought the coffee in mad was nice. (: But my craving now is, I hope tomorrow there's chao kuay tiao on the lists although I know it will never come true.

I smile like everyday that it seems like a second nature to put up a smile every now and then.
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Last episode on "Fringe" shows Walter digging the shapeshifter's eyes. ewwwww~

I think I'll be really tired because I'm working 9am and the routine will carry on till thurs. I'll be working 5 days straight. But well, time will speeeed up.
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When you're feeling tired/grief/furious/apprehend in your current state of mind, you'll often end up ransacking what you've been through; those glorious and happy times.

And then, you'll somehow feel... awful. Maybe a mixture of greatness, somehow.
Ciaooooo~
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Surprisingly vivid.

2010-10-17T23:55:00.002+08:00

hola sea. I miss you.
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Hmmmmm.
Took some time to be back on track.
And, I guess finally back on track~~

I thought going to beach in a cool (?) weathher looking at sea was great idea haha.
But look at the amount of time I have now. I know I'm definitely fortunate than fellow people now, but it's often tough to decide "home" or "out". :S
Home-ly girl chooses home.
You know who am I, haha. (:

Finally I saw angel friend, like woooots. (:
She looks fine I guess, hope so angel friend!
Next time I saw you during my lunch time, I'll go acc you k! (:
And then later during the evening, saw jh! :D I was dying due to the crowd, thankfully my mind came back when I saw her. Had a light dinner with her after work and I hope things will turn good for her family and her..

It's missing days I guess.
---

you say.

2010-10-05T23:20:00.004+08:00

Hmmm, my off day is about to end. ):
And yaaaa, I read angel friend and dearieee's blog, I think our profession is taking over us. I called an organisation asking bursary stuff and I almost said "Have a nice day!" to her. Haaa. I can't imagine how's 5 months later.

I was staying whole day at home today.
I love booooks, never fail to calm me down at times~
Lao po having studying weeeeek, if not I really wanna date her out. SUPER long never see her. ):

I feel like a dumb ass from ytd till today....
Why am I so dumb? awww. ):
I hate being dumb..
Coooooolness, how can you fail me? ...

Am I doing things wrongly? Acting rashly?
lao po ahhhhhhh~
D:

ayyy, I've 4 days till my off days to numb myself.
numb numb numb~~~
---

ai-gu.

2010-09-30T23:31:00.003+08:00

the angle.
---

Life is pretty much the same. Wake up, eat, squeeze mrt, work, home, eat, sleep. And the cycle goes for 5 days..
I think slowly, I might get used to it. I don't feel much tired alr, maybe a lil' sleepy.
well, sometimes they linked, sometimes they don't.
Asides from that, things were alright.
I'm starting to miss angel friend and dearieee. We worked in the same place, but haven't seen them yet. Like, so near yet so far hahaha.
I saw sm alr. (:
---

Somewhere, someplace.

We see things in different perspectives.
You see an end to a bridge, we see a new beginning for a start.

It's always hard to bid adiós, always hard..
Especially when this rocked our current life.
Sometimes too risky to toy around with..

Yet we all know, at the end of a certain stage, we'd learnt some lessons.
So, don't feel lost, you gained.
---

halt.

2010-09-19T22:30:00.002+08:00

I don't eat them. hahaha :D
---

I've been hibernating at home recently. :D I love holidays BUT it's ending soon. ):
I went to Cameron Highland and back here on Thursday.
The routes there nearly killed me. It turned and turned and more turns! @.@

Although nothing much to do there, but nice scenery! :D
Strawberries, tea plantations, and big cabbage. hahaha

Oh. It's internship tomorrow. So fast! awwww.
I guess this will be the 2nd job tt I'm staying for 6 months.

Oh, Hebe's songs so nice. (:

I dreamt that my grandma was so happy munching drumstick last week, the next day after that-my-series-of-nightmare. (:
I wouldn't mind to have all these bad dreams in exchange for one good dream...
---

always.

2010-09-12T17:51:00.005+08:00

Wooo. I'm using my phone to type this. And I keep pressing the shift key while typing each letter. IF NOT WORDS WILL BE CAPS LIKE THIS LOLS. I DUNNO WHY. BUT WELL, IM DEFIITELY NOT SHOUTING ALRIGHTS. (: Awww and i can't go to the next line... Well, I'll come bck later when I've time alrights. I'm going Cameron Highland tml. Haaa. THERE MAY BE MANY TREES AND PLANTATIONS. HAHA NOT THAT I'M EXCITED, JUST THE CAPS K. XD SAYO! OH SO MANY PPL'S BIRTHDAY TODAY, SHENG RI KUAI LE! :DDDD SAYO AGAIN!

2010-09-03T23:09:00.002+08:00

awww.
---

New Zealand has 80 million sheeps!
4 million people and 80 million sheeps. :DDD

awww anyway. My cousin is gonna go to my dream country (above) this December for 8 days at 3000+ bucks!!!
So awesomeeee!
December.. I'll be stranded in sg for internnnnn.
I wanna get out of this countryyy~~~~

I want go Taiwan first! :D
then bring my mom to Korea.
Maybe go hk with Lyn.
Awww. I'll push New Zealand back... pull laopoooo along. :DDD
That'll be like yearssss later awww.

AHHH. studies.....
If only I can burn you to ashes and slurp you down. :/
---

awwww.

2010-08-27T19:27:00.001+08:00

Tonari no Totoro~
となりのトトロ
---

目前电脑荧幕的背景。
宮崎駿的卡通都很不错。
最喜欢的还是龙猫这部~ （：
---

当我们同在一起。
这是一首歌，一首我曾经运用来勾勒出爱情短篇的歌。
用的是王羚柔的版本。虽然这歌不太红，但旋律清晰，依然记得。
卢小姐曾经说过，她喜欢这个故事。
我忘了是个什么样的故事... 原稿也不知去向。
好像是如高中故事般，男女最终不在一起。女方在收音机旁偶然听见这旋律，想起了值得微笑的记忆。类似的...

或许以前是个有多余情感的人，想得出细腻的故事吧。
现在啊，尽量不想触碰爱情故事。因为我这人没了情感啊！哈哈（；

卢小姐是很要好的朋友，也是最爱的朋友。
初认识时是个很真实的女生，喜欢或不喜欢会表现出来。
十四岁时老是吃不胖，因为放学后与她走了无数次的大路小路。
所以在马西岭一带我绝不迷路。（：
笑得最多最开怀，或许就是有她的这一年了。
十五岁分班时，是特别伤心的一年。
因为有些人不是每天都看得到了...

十二岁过得无忧无虑。
十四岁过得疯疯颠颠。
十六岁过得特别感伤。
十七岁过得十分惆怅。
十九岁... 应该是过得渐渐安静了吧。

嗯，每一个人都活在另一个人的记忆里吧。
我们都依然记得那过往的回忆。
让人窝心的回忆。

这首范范的 “一个像夏天一个像秋天”
给最爱的朋友。（：
也想念你！
---

当我们同在一起.

2010-08-20T22:01:00.003+08:00

有些爱是无法被磨灭的吧。
对亲人的爱，对朋友的爱，或是对那某人的爱。
若磨灭不了，那就这样吧。
我是这么想的。

与其强迫自己忘掉伤痛，不如让它遗留在那里。
然后随着时间流逝，冲淡记忆。
然而，你我都知晓... 有些记忆烙印在心底，耗尽一辈子也无法磨灭。
所以，就这样吧...
至少忘不掉，也以另一种形式存活在心底。
这样就够了...

我不是世上最富有的人，也不一定拥有最富有的心。
但知足常乐。
对他人，不过分期盼或要求。
也希望，他人对于我不过分指望或期盼。
希望越高，失望越大。
不是不信任，只是想避免失望的表情浮出水面。

总觉得..
天空还是辽阔的啊。
现有的这份宁静，还是能使我会心一笑。
---

知足常乐。

2010-08-16T10:51:00.003+08:00

yuuuups.
I've been hooked to Liar Game S2 for the past days. Super nice! :DD
May catch the movieeee in GV. (:

So... oh! Friday 13th went out with dearieee. :DDD
Like the day implies, we'd been through great ordeals:
being super lazy & waited for 170 for 45minutes, rain water slid under our slippers and pose as a threat, countless people stood in front & our sight was restrained to their backs, people alighting practically jumped to the ground & water splashed onto our legs, Indian woman's purple scarf brushing my leg, dearieee complaining her back hurts like old people, big rain became drizzlesss, gave up & walk under the drizzles, and when sort of reached checkpoint, tadaaaaa 170 CAME. @_____@

Though,

had our fav Kim Gary late lunch complement with the main course yuan yang (& baked rice) :D Dabao cheesecake back and seems so funny to have the cheesecake scanned under the system. xD
And I tried introducing Season's Snowskin mooncake to dearieee. Realised she likes traditional mooncake like meeeee. hahaha like olddd people.
---

Hmmm. It's a weird feeling to take a 913 bus and pass through msl sec. And I'll tend to remember where, where & where what took place. Or where, where & where I'm with who.

Sometimes, we shouldn't even scan too deeply to the past.
---

cold.
hush.

2010-08-13T00:26:00.005+08:00

D. and Gone.
---

Great, I'm back to my usual routine. I realised the routine turned to a past tense since months and months ago.
So, back to reading James Patterson's book and a jubd's chinese book.
And, been catching Liar Game S2. Niceeee. (:
And I watched Salt online, but the plot wasn't really clear.. o.o Angelina Jolie is still pretty! and the action parts are nice too. (:

Great great. I think I wouldn't have been holding English book if not for angel friend. And I wouldn't know Bloody Monday. :DDD She never failed to influence me! hahaha
I'm confident that I could survive without stepping out of house. :DDD
But I'm missing people alr!

My sister said she'd been following the steps of eating oreo cookies LOL. xD She thought I do as well. But nope. I just dunk. She twist lick dunk I think. ahaaaa. And she bought Time Out just now which is awww. :D My cousin bought Godiva chocs, so ex! But nice. (:

I should go back Malaysia soon, uhs?
I guess that's what my name is for, serene. Calm. yeaaaaa stay fine and calm. Just get over, and moveeee on.

The sky is blueeee, clouds are white.
---

You, happiness.
Me, calm.

2010-08-08T12:24:00.002+08:00

Her party balloons.
---

When finally, most of the things came to a halt.
I left with reflections and bcomm soln call. And frankly, I never had a thought of loving bcomm. In fact, school activities are torturous.
But I thought, UR, MQE & S&W are always cool. (:

I would miss my dream team.
It's like how we wanted everything to be over and how we would miss some people and things that accumulated over the years. Ironic, but it's how our brain works.
Memories never modified themselves, unless you alter them. I still miss a lot a lot of things that happened up till the point, 19 now. They will never gonna disappear because they're kept. And, you'll know where they're kept.
I'm drafting everybody something! Haha, when time comes. (:
---

Although, still feel a tad pissed over absurd life of people.
But I got that inkling of being serene over the tranquility in the morning. It's a good technique to remain calm at circumstances.
I'd said everything I could. You owned your life.

I'll see how these lives can continue.
---

I think... It's time to ponder about all the things that happened from last year. I still get the feeling that the whole part of my life were missing when grandma left. Like I'd never given myself time to think about what really happened..
---

Ironic.

2010-08-02T00:53:00.003+08:00

trapped.
---

It's a cold day.
I walked on the street the other day, back to my block.
It's a cold day too.. I wished weather had been fine.
Perhaps some streams of sunlight to feel that the Earth is still a warm place.

I wish to get out of here; like a getaway.
Go travel. Taiwan & New Zealand.
Taiwan, yes. But why New Zealand, you would ask?
Seriously, one of the answers is the cows.
Haha, you would laugh.. yes you would. I don't know why the cows, but I assure that there are something else to the answer. Maybe landscape? blah blah.

I'm hooked to Colbie's songs.
It goes like..

*#But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe it I still want you
and after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

"I never told you."
And I love her songs.
---

Getaway:
here, laptop, you.

2010-07-22T00:59:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder if I'm really in the world.
I smile, laugh, ponder, stone and hmm..
So, am I really in the world?
I guess at a time like this, I can't feel anything.
For one maybe, tiredness. I guess all are tired; physically or mentally, both maybe..

I guess I make my girls worried for not turning up in school today.
Dearieee called umpteen times. Sorry. :/ Really can't hear my alarm and hse phone.
Probably it's because I never told myself the previous night tt, "Hey, please wake up tml.."

Hmmm.
it's a mixed up feel.
Some feelings as leftovers.
---

still, monotonous.

2010-07-19T01:07:00.003+08:00

idling..?
---

Hmmm. Should go sleep. Haha, enjoying the very last moment before the hectic week commence, you see.

I'd been repeating these 4 songs the whole night..

失落沙洲 -- 徐佳莹
哼情歌 -- 徐佳莹
少了一个人 -- S.H.E
宽恕 -- 神目与瞳

May have been for some special reasons, may have been they tell certain tales, or may just because their tune fits all.
Hmmm, I like slow songs when I'm awake. xD
Hmmm... and I replay the first song the most, I guess. Like her songs. (:
---

我不是一定要你回来
只是当独自走入人海

2010-07-13T00:27:00.003+08:00

IT's midnight now. But I feel sort of sad~ why?
Suddenly thought of the 1 million things to do, I guess.
My mom was funny girl, she stood beside me while I was blogging the first sentence and she saw the word "sad". hahahahahahas~ and she told me not to feel sad, go sleep instead. hahahahahahs~~~ so she make my day by telling me to go sleep. xD yeaa.

pig said she was waiting for me to online just now.
I didn't know that. I thought she just told me to online but she said, "SO LATE I WAITED AND WAITED TILL SO SAD."
hahahas, I think must be after she wrote tt and I feel sad & I came to blog.

I spend some time today finishing "Eclipse" & doesn't seem to awe me as usual. Edward was so white..
So I went to watch WGM and see couples live tgt haha.
and I completely neglected my mqe.
bad.

Oh, angel friend's oreo cheesecake successfully start my temptation on cheesecake. She never failed to influence me. hahahaha~

Uttering more nonsense I guess.
Before tt happens, byeee people. (:
---

still, monotonous.

2010-07-11T01:52:00.002+08:00

with or without you.
---

I threw my feelings away.
And, I became more monotonous these days. Am I? I guess so.
It's busy days, feelings are detrimental to health. Too much makes a big difference, I guess it's best to throw it away; at least, temporary.

Curb my brownie desire with Lyn that day.
I missed Kim Gary's food.. Ages since I went.

And I miss novels-reading-time at night.
Feelings, novels, running (?), outings with gfs,,,
Aug? Hmm..
---

you?
I can't.

2010-07-03T00:11:00.003+08:00

天黑黑。
天黑黑。
你的天是否一样黑呢？

看不见蓝天白云...
总觉得什么个什么少了平静。
找不到所追寻的那种...平静；不安。
不安。

值得吗？
跟紧脚步想要努力爬上阶梯。
却发现“想” 已无法与现实成对比..
什么叫努力，什么叫用心..
不晓得。
不晓得...

老是往回看..
想要努力爬上阶梯所付出的代价，值得吗？
往回看又只是望见那一道道残留下的遗憾。
往前看又只是望见那一道道紧闭的大门。
该怎么走...
怎么走...
---

心情，要自己负责。

2010-06-26T22:35:00.002+08:00

Hello women out there.
Please, when you suspect ur guy did "something" behind ur back, don't go and hurt the other girls out there which you suspect they are the lead of the story. Can't keep ur curiosity? Great, ask ur guy.

Okay, I really feel annoyed when someone did things to hurt my friends.
TOLD you tt they are friends. Your guy says so.
you MAY be the victim, but please, my girl is also a victim ALRIGHTS.
Don't cut ur life into hers to make her feel awful anymore.
Things are already moving on.
After all, you're just the insecure one. If you're afraid, go on, prove to ur guy tt you're capable of keeping his heart.

and you, aren't you gonna keep HER away? What's the use of saying sorry.
---

Jeeeez.

2010-06-20T23:15:00.002+08:00

you're free..
---

Hmmmm.
Got this fear of term 2..
When we feel that things are ending, it's actually the beginning.. x___x
---

容易思念人吗？
你，容易思念人吗？
有容易思念的人吗？

关在能发呆的地方会想念。
让你心痛的人... 最容易想念。
---

but I'm not..

2010-06-17T23:28:00.002+08:00

Colour, my world.
---

It's a weird feeling.
Not right, not right..

Sorry, I don't know what I'm saying tonight..
Ignore them, alrights?
---

brink brink,
areyouherealready?

2010-06-11T01:35:00.000+08:00

蓝天白云，最最爱...
---

偶尔，也想在人群中消失得无影无踪。
偶尔，也想脱离世界的枷锁。
偶尔，也想保持沉默，静静地观望身边的每一位人士。
偶尔，也想就闭上眼帘，思念你。

偶尔，也想去实现我的一千一万个偶尔..
---

深呼吸
偶尔也要为自己疗伤啊.

2010-05-31T21:50:00.002+08:00

fallin' out.
---

Hmmm. I'm starting to not-eat-so-much already.
You know, there're times where I'll eat a lot in school.
And, times where I don't eat at all. o.o
Usually I don't feel like eating at busy times~ x.x

We need goood tolerance on school work. Because it makes us gagaaa. x.x
I don't uds what rmtr is teaching, actually..

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. I get crazyyyy easily when I'm on the brink.
So, when I'm zzzzz, please ignore what I'd said to you earlier on.
---

willyoueversayagain?

2010-05-24T22:42:00.003+08:00

peeek-aa-booo.
---

生活，是自己的。
就像我无权替你做选择，无权操控你的思维。

但，支持与认同是分叉的。
---

有些过往很愚昧..
愚昧地让人发笑。

但也使我了解到，原来也曾经拥有过原本完好无缺的面孔。
磨练..
我们都在经历许许多多的磨练。

失去再获得，获得再失去...
无形中，蜕变了。
有些伤痕埋不掉，也去不了。

记忆还是是最好的收藏品啊..
---

Can't save me.
You can't.

2010-05-16T13:22:00.002+08:00

Spillover effect;
---

我们啊~
都是伤心的人啊...

经历
是坚强的理由吧..
---

手持画笔
画出一道又一道的印记。
多么刻骨铭心，要记得啊..
---

Many things to do ahhhhhhhhs.
Hmmmmm. ):
---

你，朋友。

2010-05-07T23:04:00.003+08:00

vague. vague.
---

When you'd got killed once.
twice.
thrice.

You're not that fine anymore.
In fact, you'll altered.. you.

The "r" thing wasn't on my lists.
It's not something to trust.
It's not hatred. It's just not practical anymore.

Great.
After all, that personality was dead.
---

the weird state of mind. zZzz.

2010-04-28T21:39:00.002+08:00

I'll hang your love up,
---

Days had been shag recently.
Probably it's like a prolonging effect; pushing you down.
I feel like.. 6 weeks has passed, when the fact answered, "hey, it's 2."

Downpours seen all day, days in reality.
I'd been stomaching misery starting n years.
May not be mine, could be yours, yours or yours.
As time goes by, I said, "accustomed".
I'm not keeping secrets. I'm just accustomed to the way I lived by.
After all, what does it meant to say? or not to say?

it's still back to square one.
---

to somewhere I couldn't reach.

2010-04-24T22:25:00.002+08:00

long-lasting friendship.
---

Mood-less, and mood-less.
Been in that recently.
Truth is, I do not really know why.
Probably, can't fathom certain things.

Or probably, R-E-L-U-C-T-A-N-T decribes everything.
Just realised that a lot of stuff need to be done. Sooner or later.
I knew my babble habits are surfacing, pardon me; simply, tired.

It's a work day tml. I was reminded of a $70.
I doesn't have the extra energy to collect those debts. Fine fine.. Just throw them away..

Sorry my friend, make it up to you someday.
Happy Birthday! You're loved as always.

(:
---

evolving to..
a neccessity.

2010-04-15T16:06:00.002+08:00

Roses are red, violets are blue.
say;
who?
---

Okay let's seeeeee. Holiday's over sooon.
I've NOT run, read novels, play a lot.
):

I guess pretty much time was spent on work. And, usually when I've time, I'd been watching online shows. xD
Visited the women's clinic and costs a BOMB. Half of my pay for March was gone~ x.x

It's raining now, but it's warm. Ironic. :S
Haven't meet mz. Hmmmm... o.o

Meeting my loves later. :D

Till then, catching fringe again. Sayooooo. :D
---

pooooooofs.
we said, "dreamt was a past tense."

2010-04-05T12:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYY MY ANGEL FRIENDDDDDD :D
It's hard to find a proper angel cakeeeee leh. xD
It's a blueeeee cake, niceee hor? xD

Been many years. I've beeen seeing you for many years.
Although it may not have reach a decade, but yes, I see you grow taller :DDD and being a niceeeee friend. :D
For one thing I like the school, will be about you. And, getting to know you over again.
I loveeee talking to you about everything under the sun. (Okay, mb the shade. xD)

I'm fine during the holiday because you never influence me ur weird stuff. HAHA.
I'll hear it soon I guess. xD

Thank you for everything that you had done for me. :P
LOVES you.
---

:D

2010-04-01T23:16:00.002+08:00

Suport; support.
---

I'm... tired. Okay I know I should be sleeping. As in, morning shift tml... 5am wake up.
Feeel so reluctant to know that I'm working 11 days this month. To you, might be little, to me, it's like a huge thing on my shoulder.. Converting to currency, I'll earn $440 in apr if there aren't any excuse from my side. x.x

It's a sad day today.
I don't know why, precisely. Just... feel a little weird. x.x
and tired. Mb I woke up tooo early for the IS...

Met up with sm, laopo and ld for dinner ytd.
Simple dinner, nice movie and minute rants. Great.
I love things in their simple form, not too much frills..

I think I might push btt to next holiday... Hmmmm.

It's great to know that someone remember you for things that you'd done that became a part of their life when the bulb lights up somewhere.. (:
---

when someone just did..
and for someone who'll never does.

2010-03-22T11:25:00.002+08:00

Little maxi...
---

我会怕。
我会怕。

我会怕听见有人这样说，“_____ 走了。”

“这么会这样啊...”
“这么会这样啊...”

有感情的东西让人很悲伤啊...
---

“就这样走了...”

2010-03-17T23:32:00.002+08:00

:D

Holiday was great. :D
Did you realised? 3 weeks gonna gone. That left with 1 month back to ewwww. =___=
I think holiday is SHORT k. :X

Oh, I sort of know how to go City Square in Malaysia alr. xD *Hs dearieee* hahaha, but still need to confirm somemore. Just went with Lyn not long ago. (:
And singing k there so much cheaper than here. o.o
Sing one time here can sing 2 times there. xD

Oh yea. I'm finally working after like..... after how many months. :X
It's not any interesting job, no fantastic pay. But ya, out to gain exp.
Still one more job I quite quite quite feel like trying. ADMIN.
Even though it's a boring job, but I still wanted to try. o.o no chance for this holiday I guess. o.o

Oh went back Malaysia tt day. Incense smell out to kill my pooooor eye. @.@
Saw little maxi, beagle, with long nails. x.x and he really bites if you snatch its food. lols.

And went movieeeee with Lyn and Saodah today. :D Very funnnnny they all. xD
Hmmm, actually I quite like the seats in the cinema, except tt they're too upright. haas. My second time in there. Anyhoooo... it's a weird feeling.

OKAY. sayoooooo.
Haha, my cousin said sayo is veggie in Jap. xD
---

wishful.

2010-03-07T15:10:00.002+08:00

TO my dear つま,

I'll stand by you, on whatever decision of yours. I know, it's a big obstacles ahead. If I can help you to kick those awful stuff away, I'll do so. You've the every right to be down for somedays, pick up yourself after the storm. I'm sure you'll find that helping hand somewhere if you've cast yourself upon your decision.
Support you always.

With lots of love. Jiayous!
---

I'll be right here.

2010-03-02T22:39:00.004+08:00

Entitled.
---

Sometimes, we realised that it's time to rest.
And some resting just involved me.
Absense of all, but.. me.

Or absense of me, from many.
There're just some instances which circulates, like vicious cycle does.

It may or may not circulate for a reason;
that may never be unveil.
---

escapade.

2010-02-26T15:45:00.003+08:00

Reach out.
---

When the awesomeeeeee holiday begins. (:
that's my big grin. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD
haha!

Here's my simple plan:
Novels, work, go running, back Malaysia, PLAY YAYYY! :DD

Going back M'sia tml. My jiu ma BROUGHT a dog back from a park lols.
That may be other people's dog uhs. O.O
---

:DDD

2010-02-18T18:12:00.002+08:00

HA-low. I'm back like, recently.
Omg it's really hard to study in M'sia because those Vietnamese at the opposite lane played their country's songs loud loud and the most @.@ things is.... they sing like ewwww. =____= they repeat those songs over and over again! ewwwwww.

Oh. cny has been a little bland.
Because we can't play fire crackers and didn't had steamboat. But it's okay..
Many things to eat though. I'm so fat! @.@ hahaha
Got two angbaosssss when visiting relative, jiu ma said can take. The golden retriever there drool on my slipper. HAA but he's cute, forgive him. xD

I can't study in the afternoon..... x.x it's uberrrrr hot. Not exactly because of that, but just no mooooood. ):
that's bad that's bad...
---

有时候有时候..

2010-02-11T22:51:00.003+08:00

ittsu te miyou~
---

车厢里。
这镜前。
人物、背景，形形色色。
表情、面容，单一颜色。

车厢里。
这镜后。
人物、背景，模糊不堪。
表情、面容，难以捉摸。
---

新年。
新年。
新年。
每年新年都会期待回去看你。
哎...
时间不停留，不倒流。
记忆依旧深刻；永不忘。

今年... 不知是否有回去。
---

新年快乐..

2010-02-03T16:23:00.000+08:00

EEEEE.
TWINITY SUCKS.
):

---

ewww.

2010-01-28T20:21:00.002+08:00

I saw this on yong yong's notes. yong yong is my very nice cousin. (:
---

“這是最好的時代，也是最壞的時代；

這是智慧的時代，也是愚蠢的時代；

這是篤信的時代，也是疑慮的時代；

這是光明的季節，也是黑暗的季節；

這是希望的春天，也是絕望的冬天；

我們甚麼都有，也甚麼都沒有；

人們升上天堂，也下墜地獄。”

from Charles Dickens " A Tale of Two Cities"
狄更斯 “双城记”.
---

I'm getting old. It's my chinese birthday today. And Eng tml. haha
As usual, it's not a feeling of being happy.
It's just.. another normal day on Earth. Not being pessimistic, but you know.. it's just. "Oh".
So, no big celebration this year. no gifts this year. (: that's the thumb of rule.
I had made the same wish every year since 2005. Since my grandma had a stroke..
And dear grandma, I'll still make that wish of you every year. (:

k, projects.
---

不管你在哪里，要过的好好的...

2010-01-22T23:05:00.003+08:00

The horizon.
---

Like them, we stood on the brink.
Forward or backward, your choice.
One wrong move, you'll fall; off from the beauty of picture.
Though it's always a fresh start yet, again.

I told someone.
Or in fact, I'll tell everyone.
"The convoluted complexity is not my cup of tea."
I prefer living with that little cup of Milo, cleaving on things that entertain the minute details of my life, babbling on the phone, "Hey, how are you my dear?".

But somehow, reality always wear us off.
hmmm?

Oh, it's a sudden thought that I miss Chinese.. o.o and I love brownieeeees (:
---

cleft.

2010-01-17T23:38:00.002+08:00

Open heart.
---

We attempt; cinch the beliefs for the purpose of believing..
Sometimes, a beliefs makes a great deal in life.
Just like, a hope for continuation of big obstacles.

I remebered these two:
人之初，性本善。
人之初，性本恶。

I think I'll go with the first one. (:

I'm great in controlling my temper recently.
But, more indifferent now.. o.o
Hmmm.
---

tick tack toe.

2010-01-10T21:57:00.002+08:00

Never gonna catcha'.
---

NO TIME.
Wasn't it great if we could save time?...
Well. @.@
---

shoooooooo

2010-01-01T13:19:00.001+08:00

あけましておめでとう~
Happy New Year~
---

01 01 2010

新年快乐~
该这样说吗？
或许有些事，不该太执著。
2009 年是心痛的一年。
这一年，不会忘记。

不敢奢望什么，
我，不需要太卓越的成绩、奢华的感情、华丽的外表、薪水丰厚的兼职工…
这些都不需要。
平安与健康肩并肩就是最好的礼物。
希望家人朋友们会收到这份礼物。

感谢家人与朋友...
庆幸有你们的陪伴度过了艰难的2009，
少了你们任何一位，我的人生空了一个洞...
谢谢你们的支持与鼓励。
大家都要活得好好的。
---

2010.

2009-12-30T21:08:00.003+08:00

the pallid sky..
---

December used to be windy.
A place of poise close to window used to be a routine.
It's a time, where no matter how sunny the skies seem.. insinuate an element of livid.

People used to say, we live in the grey area.
Vague.
Vague.
Vague.

ah po.. is the sky gonna turn blue sometime, someday, some month?
Miss you alright..
---

I bought a printer today. FINALLY! (: Happy happy happy~~ (:
My strong mama is a great great great lady. xD

It's project time. Well. booooo ~~

Angel friend get my hibernation mode back back back! (:
I would never know there's a "hibernation" button if she never say. :X ty okays! ♥ you~~ xD
Stop saying weirddddddd langua to influence meeee~~ hahass

sayo~
---

*signs*

2009-12-20T12:40:00.004+08:00

yay. it's break. (:
Although it's not gonna be long..

Had a really weird dream this morning. I think it's quite lame. xD
So, in this dream..

I dreamt of yixi and others whom I might know or not know. They are doing some divination stuff with an old man. So this old man asked all of them to REMOVE their FINGERS or HANDS in order for the divination to be possible. Then they put all their hands on top of each other, aptly inside a box..

After the divination (I don't know how the old man does it), he took out ALL the hands & fingers and they jumbled up. (HAHA) and, THEY TURNED GREEEEN in colour, like those jelly like stuff. :S
Then yixi got really shocked and many people are vying for the right hands and fingers. xD I think she's a lil' too slow for those hands and fingers... So I choose the most suitable hand with thin and long fingers for her in the leftovers. XD
and I woke up.

HAHA OMG. XD
Maybe "green is the IN thing." lols. xD
---

hmmmmmm.

2009-12-14T14:49:00.002+08:00

回到这里.. 又回到这里...
回到这里，心是空旷的。
看不见什么，只觉得许多事如烟雨般消失了。
好像什么东西从生命中被抽走..
生命很脆弱很脆弱..
很多事，要珍惜...

外婆就这样走了。
庆幸没有医院的插管，没有最后的太煎熬，安详地离去。

我不是没事，只是没有言语能够表达..
我不是有事，只是说不出话，我不会。

心是酸的。
酸着酸着，变痛了...
感觉一切都是假的...

感觉握着你的手，还是昨天的事..

阿婆，一路好走...
我们会带着你的爱，走下去。
---

想念。

2009-12-04T20:58:00.002+08:00

Fly high,
will you?
---

Chu-chu ~ I kept saying this at home recently. Never knew why. Haas. xD
CT coming. Jeez.

Thoughts are akin to composite pictures.
Some fits, some stay outside the big picture.
The past used to be too edgy.
Smoothed their irregular facade; they're churned to be fine.

It takes time to cultivate the tranquility.
The tranquility that you & I are committed to plunge in.
It's hard to reach, arduous to remain composed at the slightest tad of grief in mind.
Not an issue on composed.
But a form of dissipating. Off your mind.

Serenity; probably what I would never stop trying.
---

serenity.

2009-11-29T10:07:00.002+08:00

):

I'm officially sick again.
Sometimes it's like a chain..
cramp -> sore throat -> cough -> feeling cold -> flu -> fever. ):

I've forgotten it's the how-many-times I've been down with all these since this school thing appeared.
Awww. life sucks as much.
---

):

2009-11-22T21:11:00.002+08:00

Childhood loves.
---

Kind of missed a plentiful of things that popped out, displaying the glory flash;
prevailed only for that.
Faded as it does.
Nonetheless, those kind of misses flow incessantly.

Are we moving too rapidly?
Are we ascending too high that we're too apprehensive to even peep low?
...

I prefer, you never understand.
Sometimes, it's soothing to leave a part of you;
in you.
---

an errant breeze.

2009-11-15T18:26:00.002+08:00

uhmmm.
---

November rains was.. cool.
Sometimes a lil' too cooling.
Still, I like November.

Because it rains.
Because it is less vexing, probably.
Because it calms you down.
Because it's near to year end.
Because it wasn't too long before I'll remember something that I always love to do but not gonna do anything this year.. next year? or next next year?..

"You're not on your bed of roses, mind you."
Something to remind of.
---

November rains.

2009-11-11T22:50:00.002+08:00

Charm me.
---

I'm not a flower type of girl.
However, I still thought that blue roses looks unique. No particular reason I presumed.

Life's been like this.

Oh. I discovered that I've not really taken a picture with angel friend and dear hs..
SO, each of you take one picture with me before we're off from freak-ishh school forever alright. (:

And. I never like those derisory NIGHTMARES that snapped me out of reverie.
I'd rather have those that scare me by free-falling in the air, thrust me down to deep blue sea or chase by.. ancient dinosaurs? Haas. xD
---

fatal.

2009-11-06T23:20:00.002+08:00

you're blue.
---

Shut your eyes.
Over your ears.
Squat.
Scream.

Halt.
Over it.
You're fine.
---

sure?

2009-11-01T23:20:00.002+08:00

闭上眼睛；漆黑一片
犹如独自在行人道的前头
朦胧，朦胧…
捂着耳朵；剩下寂静
好似摸不清门后的声响是喜悦或悲伤
困惑，困惑…
遮盖嘴巴；苦闷参半
好比哑巴吃黄连，有苦说不出
无奈，无奈…
---

Right. I'm coughing like some tuberculosis patient. @.@
Mom thinks I've some fatal illnesses because my lips change colour like how a chameleon does. Just that mine with limited colours.
HAHA. :X

BOO.
I'm scared of studies.

My cousin said, "Be yourself, it's complicated.."
(: my 3rd cousin is really a GREAT guy. haha
---

"Be yourself, it's complicated.."

2009-10-30T23:48:00.002+08:00

HAAA-CHUUU ~
*sniff*
---

I'M sick. wooooooo. If tml I'm down with fever, I'll say goodbyeeee to swing dance. ^^
haha! xD

But I'll missed ice-cream. O.O
awwww, that's the problem with opportunity costs. ~~

dearrrr hs said i'm emo. xD that's shu fa qing gan ~~ don't worry alright!
If not, my heart will stufffff to death. :X
---

highlight highlight xD

2009-10-28T22:10:00.002+08:00

Hey dear. (:
---

Well, that's my very childhood friend. Though same class for only 4 yrs, but amazingly, many many minute stuff to blab about. Practically, I grew up with her. (:
Well, I remembered this place in the picture. What I've done, and what happened..
For one moment, I feel foolish. @.@ Hahas.

THANK YOU dearest.
Thanks for allowing me to rant repetitively to you.
Thanks for understanding my stand and point.
Forgive times where I snivelled perpetually. I'll not blubber like some kid already alright. xD
And thanks for listening to me when hell congest my mind.
You know, it meant a lot to me.. (:

And dearest, you're really a great friend. It's like, I knew you would be there somewhere. :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU in advance k!
we would "ren". JY. ^^
loves you! (:

and people, we would stay together, stand together and laugh together. *wink*
---

Thank you. (:

2009-10-26T23:00:00.002+08:00

you're so different.
---

I love crayons. Probably because it's always so fanciful; lots of colours.. It never failed to make my day.
Or even, it's my tool for children art. So simple, enough for contentment.
Why does the world seems so vague now? when it's so clear like blue skies when we're young?...

Shouldn't be the way things should be, right?...
---

"It wasn't, up to you to decide.
My dear."

2009-10-25T21:51:00.002+08:00

Awwww~
---

Haha! Snoopy is CUTE right! xD
Actually only 3 people from our family knows how to appreciate its books. o.o

Well well, went renew passport at Singpost coz I'm too lazy to go Lavendar. @.@
SO UGLY the photo of me. Haha :X Don't always find me for phototaking alright!
Oh. Anyway, there was this Cheeena guy who speaks Chinese to a Malay girl at the counter. She was like @.@ So there was this Malay-look-Chinese girl offered to help and she spoke chinese. But this cheeena guy keep calling her AUNTIE and she looked kinda pissed. o.o

BOO to school ~
):):):):
---

你的轮廓在黑夜之中
淹没..

2009-10-22T14:14:00.002+08:00

cakes! lasagna! *screams*
---

Ahasss. Sometime ago, ate niceee stuff at Secret Recipe with lyn. (:
But but but, I think Starbuck's oreo cheesecake nicer. ^^ lasagna was okay too. o.o
i wanna try nydc's cakes. Awww, no money. $.$

Anyway, everybody had been "ewwww-ing" on the thought of dancing and SO DO I.
I told my sister I'll leave dancing to my next life. HAHA. But now........... *poof* ):
I can't even put my leg lying straight on floor. How deleterious is that? =____=
What's wrong with the course?!?!?!?!
FRILLSUCKS.

and, school sucks. It's pulling my heart down down down. It went sank sank sank...
It's a foreboding.. Times are never gonna be mercy.

Hmmm this thought came to my mind long long time ago. My ambition next life is becoming ARTIST. XD how does that sounds? xD
HAHA. alright. Slap me awake.

I'm tired of being someone special.
When I live 18 years of my life being ordinary.
Never fixed unique on me.
Cause, I'm just not that fanciful being down the road.
---

T.Y.

2009-10-18T22:26:00.005+08:00

把心情收好吧
把那不留意而洒出来的情感锁牢吧
把遗憾留给昨天吧
把软弱无力的自己隐藏好吧
把自己收回去吧...

这些.. 暂时不想触碰
---

Ewwwww. Back pain. >.<

Like an old injury... x.x

And oh. There's a LARGE grasshopper jumping down from the curtain in my room a few days ago. O.O There has been quite a number of weird insects visiting our home ever since we moveeeed here some years ago. o.o ewww.

Well, hunch. This is gonna be bad.
---

Confiscate,
everything.

2009-10-16T22:17:00.001+08:00

Grief. ):
School's starting.
Every semester, I feel sick. It's like a battle, a war. You survived, either won or wounded. You died, either once or repetitive.
So yea, here I am. Griefing over the minute things that you would thought of.
---

You know, dreams are so surreal. When you're dumped into the reverie of lalaland, every instant seems vivid; fresh to mind, Good ones trace upon you. Horror ones haunt your night. Some? ponder between the line.

Once a morning, surreal as always been. This intense emotional attachment, surrounding, people and all..
Some 35 times of the same thing, different plots.
Just like the picturesque tableau that was concocted.

Yet, apprehensive when backed. It has then, a delusion..
Contradicting wasn't it?
You embrace them, hope it's that picture. But it consumed all the great moments, leaving you to wither when you're back to face the truth.
---

delusion; as it seems.

2009-10-06T16:48:00.002+08:00

Hello world~
I'm backed here after 5 weeeeeks. :X
I Swear I'm finding a blogskin all this while. :X
just TOOO lazy to change everything at one go. x.x

Hmmm, Watching showsss currently these past weeks.
my fav sci-fic show "Fringe" is up for Season 2. ^^
and one more sci-fic new show. "Flashforward". (:
haha although I'd said "Gossip Girl" are not tt wow show. But I still do watched. xD
and "Drop Dead Diva" is nice! (:

I do something okay! I'm not that "NO LIFE" teenage you think. (:
FINALLY, I've packed ONE section of my drawer today. (: drained 2hrs. ): and it's a total dilemma to decide which subj of stuff to THROW. ):
I'm throwing PURE SCIENCE & ENG COMPRE stuff from sec3/4 away after much contemplating.. haaaaas.
Sentimental right???? HAAs.
POA ranks top on my "DO-NOT-THROW" lists. xD because it had the most stuff. Sentimental right???? HAAs.
TWO more portions left. ):

Should I throw my song sheets away? o.o
OK NO.

I NEED TO GO OUT SOON,
before horrible vegetable school starts. ):

and, I think French sounds awesome. (:
---

tadaaaaa's~ (:

2009-09-11T23:57:00.000+08:00

Went つま's houseeeee today. (:
Happy to see that girl. (:
and did some revising of poa.
YES POA. @.@
That happened for a reason.
I was coaching her brother poa. xD
my part-time job is a tuitionnnn teacher now. xD
with no pay though. hahas.
I do feel like oweeeeee-ing her father though. >.<
---

Half-stumbled, along the way.
That way; shuddered at the shuffling of song lists.
This song.. Why this song, stridddding that way..
I looked calm. Perfectly calm, indeed.
But my heart pounds a million times, like, I wasn't belong to there for even once...
---

will the globe,
turns anti-clockwise?

2009-09-09T14:46:00.001+08:00

庆幸

世界上有些声音
在最愉悦最感伤时无条件守护身旁
在最彷徨最无助时坚持立场寸步不离
不管寻觅的是哪一类哪一种
希望得到的，永远是体会，安慰。

天空，或许并非如此蔚蓝平静
或许，其实就如此简单而易
只是，复杂化环绕于此
我们，适应，适应
有时，太辛苦。

感慨。
不如意十之八九

一笑置之。
---

不思八九

2009-09-08T10:53:00.000+08:00

I was back in Malaysia for the weekend.
It was always that nice to be back there.
No handphones, minimal connection to laptops. Just, away from what you prefer to stay away.
It's just nice, to know how your dear families took care of you like you can't afford to lose anything. Not that spoilt thing going arounds you, I mean.
It's just how nice, that they understand the process of some $#%%#@# going on which took your breath away.

and it's just how I wished, I would stay around my grandma and she would be fine and well like how she used to be..

It's like that right?
so contradicting and hard at times.

I guess, I should go back often..
---

garbled message.

2009-09-02T22:35:00.005+08:00

Sometimes it's just..
nice to have people who understands you.

I lived in a small circle. I'm contended. (:
Thanks mom! ^^
I promised I'll still still still find work, even though the cycle of firing the boss in 1 day may still goes on. xD

and thanks つま..
for telling me what I most most most wished to know most.
You know... It meant a lot to me..

optimistic and pessimistic lies on that line. Just...
where are you lying closer to?
I like my listening ears, getting all out. Rant rant rant, and I'll be fine in no time. (:
it's okay, with just a leaning shoulder, and no answer..
---

because silence,
is the best answer...

2009-08-28T20:38:00.000+08:00

Oh woww! I seee that sm was still alright with life. (:
awwww i'm missing eating ice-cream with her. xD hahaha!
oh. Ice cream! ya. I'll be eating ice creammmmm soooooon, with lyn. (:

ohhhh. I'm getting a lil' worried on my work attitude. Because I've the tendency to run away from every job. :x blahblahblah~ @.@
---

I wasn't controlling others' life.
She's my good friend for years alright.
I merely gave my opinion on what I feel. That's all.
Decisions are not on my hand, please abstrain treating others like a kid.
And, put a halt of that imprint on your perspective on others, you're not that awed to me in any case.
she said you've turn "m" word. But to me, you're the "r" word.
She have friends to confide in. You don't expect her to be like you who kept yours.
Where in the end, you found that nobody understands you.
that's a torment.
---

Reflect.

2009-08-25T21:44:00.004+08:00

YEA! Exams FINISHED! ^^
I'm happppppppy. (:
It's like a BIG burden shooooooo, offff your shoulder. (:
hehhhhhs. But lalala, I'm not caring about results now. :X
peaceful sleeep tonight. (:

So... yeaa. I feel emptier now because..... like nothing to do. o.o
I think I gonna find a jobbbb soon. >.<
hahas.

I don't think I've lottttts to blog here since it's the start of holiday.
hahas. Till I find something randomly interesting to do. I'll come back here. xD
---

Howmuchpainwasinflicted.

2009-08-20T20:38:00.000+08:00

ohhhh. O.O
skin screwwwed. old blogskin temporary. (:
till my exams gone, I think my tagboard wldn't be up. xD

till then~ (:
JIAYOUS FOR EXAMS PEOPLE! (:

(:(:(:
---

fluttersfluttersflutters.
poooooooof.

2009-08-15T11:51:00.000+08:00

*grimaced*

scanning scanning.
Found: pmkt notes reposing on my table.
GAA. I should go study now. x.x
---

中意清澈的天空
凉凉的微风
细细的小雨
仿佛，连成一线
试图释放着压抑已久的情感
---

闭上眼，就这样。
这样就好。

2009-08-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

@.@
Well, nothing really triggers my interest in stuff these days. Because-you-know-why.
Yea. But wooosh. It's ending.
And gooosh. It's exam-ing.
Oh. I got paranoid. by atrm's costing.
I knew peanuts about it. No, tt's over-statement. It's almost less than what a peanut give.
That kindaa feelings just send me back to my pure chem period. Where I know practically nothing what our teacher was hypnotising against the whiteboard. o.o
So, bless me!.. >.<

Anyway, was "lodging" some hours at piggg's house recently.
So today was so. She packed chicken rice for me. ^^
and she claimed that she's gonna undress in front of her wide open windows someday to ward off the uncle who resides next blk, standing near his windows everytime; half-naked (top). HAHA. let's wish her good luck. xD

Just being random, had this nostalgic dream creeping into my mind. BOO.

And just to share a sentence. (:
Which I thought it's quite meaningful, to me. Pig doesn't understand the essence of it. duhh.
“我没有四海皆兄弟的天分，但我有一颗真心，换来一个真，善，美德小圈圈。”
(:

tv for me now.
ADIOS ~
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一有爱就走吧

2009-07-26T21:31:00.000+08:00

Well well, blogger is still.... @.@
Anyway, I've got a feeling that there's lots of stuff to do.
YET, people are telling me it's because I've problem with time management...
YES. But, everybody is different.
I'M A SLOW LEARNER. I THOUGHT SO. @.@
AND, I can't study or do work outside that efficiently.
AND, I can't stay put to do a particular assignment more than 2 hours in a HOT afternoon.
My mind will drift away ~ x.x
Anyway, tt's too bad. x.x

Alright. Watched this WEIRD show with piggg earlier on.
I think it's a pretty OMG movie. x.x
it's about this guy who adopt a child, and this freaky child turn out to be some awful "kid" who wouldn't age?!!!! wth.
We laughed pretty long on the anti-aging part. xD
and what's more, that kid partner with one who "age-too-quickly" beggar to murder. =.= LOL.
I didn't know why Aaron kwok shooot this movie. @.@

Well, that's all.
I'm getting busierrrr coz of my slow pace that i can't do much abt it. x.x
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choto made~